Showing posts with label Sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sad. Show all posts

Monday, December 6, 2010

Officially this blog has to be closed!!!!!

I was telling Mr.Hubby about my intention to close this blog two days ago..

Wifey : Syg, I rasa nak close hubbyscompanion lah..
Hubby : Apesal pulak?
Wifey : Saje je..sbb I dah tak larat nak update..dari biar tak berupdate, baik I tutup je terus.
Hubby : You tahu tak it's not good to say that? Tutup hubbyscompanion tu maknanya you dah memang tak nak jadi my companion lagi. Sanggup ke you macam tu? Ingat sikit, Allah dengar tu..
Wifey : Emmm..kalau I tutup sementara je boleh? Tak larat lah syg..byk giler blog I nak kena update.Mati idea dah ni...
Hubby : Entahlah Syg..tp I mmg tak suka kalau you tutup. Sampai hati you...

I was like..errr whose blog is it??Kenapa pulak dia nak sampai2 hati pulak? Baca blog aku pun kalau aku suruh je..Tak pernah pun nak stalk2 blog aku ni..

The conversation was continued in the car...

Wifey : Syg..you suka ke blog I tu?
Hubby : I suka title dia..hubbyscompanion tu buatkan I rasa memang sentiasa you dekat dgn I. Tapi kalau you dah tak suka, nak buat camne kan..
Wifey : (sambil menggeletek pinggang Michellin Mr.Hubby)..Ooo suka rupanya. Naper you tak pernah cakap pun kat I?
Hubby : Syg...Ada kalanya tiada kata2 yang dapat gambarkan perasaan cinta I pada you..jadi, kadang2 baik I diamkan saja..

Sudah sudah...Bila Mr.Hubby dah start nak cakap macam dalam citer hindi, itulah time nya aku pause kan conversation itu...hehehe

Moral of the story : Suka rupanya dia kat blog aku nih...hihihihiii

Tapi kan.....

Dah Chenta Hati tak bagi tutup blog ni..saya telah mengambil keputusan untuk "MEREHATKAN" hubbyscompanion sekejap buat sementara waktu, lantaran schedule yang terlampau padat & ada komitmen lain yang tak harus dipandang ringan..

Apa2 pun...Aku Tetap Companion nya!!!!

Salam Maal Hijrah kawan2..I'm gonna miss you!! Take care...


Monday, August 17, 2009

I'm DOWN!!!!...but only in few days..

You know I've been trying everything (most of everything)
to be called a mom-to-be...
And the last treatment I got, makes me 90% sure of its success...
With the doc's said that's nothing's wrong with me now..
everything is just like new..
tapi
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saya menyesal!!!!
kerana

Right a week after the injection,
I started to feel period-like cramp around my lower abdomen
Saya teringat email kawan saya
(she get pregnant after 7 months of surgery)
she did tell me about the cramp she got in her early pregnancy
which made her to go & see the doctor..
and that is why I feel regret!!
Saya buat derrrkkkkk je about that cramp
sebab fikir saya, kalau pregnant pun, buat macam biasa..
don't make it too noticeable
(itu juga advice from some of my friends..)
Doktor cakap, tunggu period due date which is on the 17th,
and if by 20th still Cik P doesn't visit,
go for the UPT!!
that's what I was planning to do..
until
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one sad day came
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I woke up from bed, and that cramp is no more
I started feeling awkward
and there it came when I was having a shower..
DAMMMMNNNNNNN
terduduk jap atas toilet bowl..
My heart said, "what else I need to do?"
and the whole day is just a sighing day
to me & my darling Mr.Hubby

I am not a type of easy-giving-up person
I went to a pharmacy and get myself a UPT
saya harap2 saya bunting pelanduk
(pregnant tapi period macam biasa)
but again I was soooooooo wrong
NEGATIVE
I waited
10 mins
15 mins
20 mins
there was only 1 single line

I tried not to think about anything
My mind is free
soo free until I turned blurr & blank that day
but no tears
(bergenang sikit ada lah, itupun sebab tengok Mr.Hubby
tak tahu nak cakap apa to console my dissapointment..)
Senyap
Sunyi
Sepi

but it doesn't take that long
after I give a thought to The Creator
Subhanallah
MasyaAllah
ini iradatMu tuhanku
aku akan tetap menunggu tanpa jemu

One thing for sure
I love Mr.Hubby eternally
and I just knew, he loves me unconditionally
our love is stronger
despite our 'monthly dissappointment'
yes, if only I went earlier to see the Dr Marsita
maybe there's 'him/her' inside me
so we could save him/her to stay longer inside me
but, if Allah wants that to happen
it will happen
if not..
NO MORE QUESTIONS!!!

Friday, May 29, 2009

Selamatkan Mustaqim ya Tuhan..

Kak Alice phoned yesterday morning, telling us about the accident happened to his brother, Mustaqim. Knowing the news was a shock to us, but knowing the details of the accident bring much much more curiosity. And if I heard this from other person, I might have a lil bit of doubt. But, this is the truth, this is what really happened to Mustaqim.

He was on his way back to Kuantan after visiting his fiancee in KL. It was 9.30 at night when he passed Bentong area and he drove a Proton Wira. When he arrived somewhere in Bentong, he noticed a 'person' sitting at the back seat, and he saw the man is wearing a tengkolok..Where the hell the man is from, wearing such old-timer's attire, in the middle of the night, and in this so-called cyber era.. Mana ada org pakai tengkolok lagi.. And one more, how is suddenly the man came inside his car?? Jawabnya, dah tentu bukan manusia biasa. There was very unpleasant smell inside his car, macam bau longkang busuk! The Man keep on playing his briefcase's zipper..Bukak tutup bukak tutup..

He was so sleepy so he stopped somewhere after Bentong Toll, but not long after that, the Man wake him up.."Bangun bangun, ko kan dah lambat ni.." Hypnotized, he just wake up & pursue the journey, with that Man still in the car, playing this & that at the backseat. He kept on baca ayat kursi, and suddenly that Man vanished.. Mustaqim, without wasting any time, called Kak Alice, telling everything that happened that night. Kak Alice advised him to stop by the Temerloh R&R and perform the solat, ambik wudhu' before continue driving to Kuantan. So,as soon as reaching the R&R, he went out from the car,going to Surau. After solat & baca quran sikit, dia pun nak sambung journey tu. Ingatkan lelaki tu dah takde, tp dari surau tu jugak,dia nampak, that Man went inside out the car macam halimunan.. Berkali-kali. He called Kak Alice again, and Kak Alice asked him to make sure that thing is totally gone,then only he should resume his drive. 

(That was the last call Kak Alice received that night, and she was expecting another call when Mustaqim arrived in Kuantan)

Until 2 o'clock in the morning, a hospital called his father, telling him about the accident, and Abah & kakak dia rushing to Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan. According to the police, the saw him lying in the shallow drain near the road, and the car was found about 100 metres from him!! Looking at the car, there was no massive damage, takde kemek2,and the road divider pun takde dented, tapi Mustaqim tercampak keluar through cermin depan sejauh 100 meter! Jauhnya... Polis pun masih hairan, how could that happened. Kalau kereta tu teruk ke, or kena divider ke, it makes more sense.. So, kami tak tolak kemungkinan, ni semua angkara lembaga tengkolok tu.. There is possibility! Because Kak Alice knew it before the accident happened!

Mustaqim is now in ICU at the Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan, in his critical state battling with the injuries. Cedera banyak di kepala. Internal bleeding, the forehead skull dah retak. Doctors are working hard to make him stable, so that the operation could be done. Kesian aku tengok family dia, especially Abah dia..nangis je. Hati orang tua yg sayangkan anak melebihi segalanya.. Apatah lagi semua ni terjadi dalam sekelip mata. 

Aku doakan semoga Allah selamatkan Mustaqim, semoga bebab sakit yg dia tanggung diringankan-Nya. Semoga Abah & keluarganya menerima berita gembira setiap kali doktor memberitahu perkembangan Mustaqim kepada mereka. "Ya Allah, selamatkan dia. Berilah peluang kepadanya untuk mengecapi hidup yg Engkau kurniakan ini dengan lebih panjang, supaya dia punya peluang utk berbakti kpd Abahnya, supaya dia lebih mengecap kebahagiaan di dunia ini sebagai titian utk ke akhirat yg lebih kekal abadi. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui & Maha Penyanyang."

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