Few things to share..

2 days back,we went to Bagan Lalang for an unplanned 1-night holiday. Those who have viewed my Facebook album, know what it is all about..giler malas nak citer balik.. Nothing is special, it's all about holiday: sleep, rest,eat & then came back to routine.. But I have an issue to raise here. I have came across the same situation few times before, and I think it is time for me to say it out. ada perubahan ke jie kalo ko cakap tu??ko bukannya chairman PBB ke.. No, at least it makes me to think, and hopefully it will make others to think about it as well. It's about a stall owner, where we had our breakfast the other day at Bagan Lalang. I hate, or more polite way I could say, I don't like people who are very ungenerously giving smiles to others around her. Yeah, I tried to understand them by saying maybe they are born like that..but we learn from each other everyday thus we should mirror the good things happen around us. Of all, bukan ke senyum tu satu sedekah?? Plus, you are the owner of the stall who supposed to attract your customers and make them feel good, if not for their day long at least at the time they are having meals at your place. Ini tak, tanya nak makan apa macam nak ajak gaduh..Jauh sekali nak bertanya khabar, tanya datang dari mana.. bukan kah lebih manis begitu?? Kita ni kan berbudaya Melayu, penuh dengan adab sopan, tata tertib..takkan itu pun nak diajar?? Kita semua sudah berbulu, kata orang...**sigh**

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Ariani is open now in Bandar Baru Bangi!! And I haven't got any chance yet to pay them a visit..hehehe.. Entahlah, Mr.Hubby lately macam susah sgt nak bagi permission untuk aku perabihkan duit. Eh eh, bukan duit dia pun, dah dia bagi kat aku, duit aku lah kan.. Balik-balik,duk sibukkan yang tudung aku dah berlambak. Tak far-sighted betul la laki aku ni. Tgk lah ke depan..ada banyak lagi kaler yg aku takde..hahahaha.. Ingatkan nak pi tadi, tapi tu pun dia reluctant sgt nak bagi. Isteri solehah lah katakan, when he says NO means NO to me.. Kalo dah lembik tengkuk macam mana pun tak bagi, adalah reason nya tu.. Aku bukan nak beli banyak pun, cuma treingin nak cari yang kaler black+silver awning yang pernah aku tgk tokey Munawarrah pakai kat dalam website dia..Ishh, cantik pakai dengan white plain shirt and black pants.. Craving!!!

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Haaa..akhirnya!!! Insyaallah, ahad ni balik juga aku ke Terengganu. Last we went back was for Aidilfitri last year lah tu.. That was how many months ago??? Uhmmmm baru korang tahu penangannya jadik seorang AKU..tak pernah merengek nak balik kampung walaupun dah berbulan2 tak jenguk tanahair tercentaaa.. Kalo ikutkan taraf aku ni yang memang dah sebumbung dengan keluarga mertua, logiknya aku lih demand nak balik once a month kan.. Tapi sekali lagi nak buat camne, isteri yg solehah..hikhikhik.. Ahad ni, Kak Shila & Abang (darling negber) will be joining us. Dah lama diorg teringin nak ikut aku balik kampung. Nak cuba macam2 food Terengganu yang selalu aku bercerita sambil mengeluarkan sound effect yg pelbagai sehingga diorg pun takleh imagine keenakkan & kelazatan makanan2 Terengganu ni..Hahahaha.. Kak Shila will be there for about 4 nights, so I've got to list down our itinerary for the trip..Where to breakfast, lunch, evening tea, dinner.. What to buy.. Where to shop.. All included lah.. Depa siap nak bawak Coleman Box nak beli ikan satu tong bawak balik sini.. Mr.Hubby & Abang dah syok nak bawak balik bicycle, nak cycle from Dungun to Kuala Terengganu.. Aiiyyyyyaaa, not advisable lah..Biasalah aku, cepat risau.. Wahhh, after this kena continue balik list FOOD-TO-EAT..

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Last 2 days, my Big Bro sms me telling one sad story about our cousin; Kak Jan. She was diagnosed with Breast Cancer a week ago and will be undergoing a surgery this coming Monday. Khabarnya, dah berakar2 dah kat dalam tu. Me, feeling sad, really sad. She never complained any pain before, and only last week she found a lump, a 2cm-sized lump in her breast. When she went to doctor, it's already there! She is a cousin from my mother's side, and she's the number one diagnosed with cancer in the family.. Now, I got both sides, Mommy's & arwah Bak's, with cancer. 

Ya Allah..selamatkan Kak Jan. Berilah peluang padanya untuk mengecap kebahagiaan bersama anak-anaknya. Berilah peluang dia melihat anak2 nya membesar. Kau ringankanlah bebanan penyakitnya Ya Allah, kuatkanlah semangatnya menghadapi dugaan-Mu yang satu ini. Dekatkanlah dia dengan diri-Mu. Sembuhkan dia wahai Allah, sesungguhnya aku berpegang pada hanya tali-Mu, aku memohon perlindungan hanya pada-Mu.. Hanya Engkau yang mempunyai kuasa dengan berkata "kun" maka terjadilah segala kehendak-Mu. Maka, aku percaya pada kekuasaan & ilmu ghaib yang Kau miliki. Sembuhkan dia wahai rabbi walaupun di saat ini semuanya memiliki harapan yang sangat tipis. Tetapi tidak jika aku bersandar pada harapan dengan-Mu..Engkaulah yang maha pengasih, lagi maha mengetahui..amiinn..

Our lunch today...

Ari ni aku rasa cam nk citer2 pasal menu & resepi pulak..Dah lama rasanya tak share resepi dgn u'olls kan..since camera hp aku bertukar dari superb ke hampeh. Agaknya byk kali sgt kot kena asap bila aku mabik gambor lauk dlm kuali..hehe.. Sekrg dah ada camera cinonet ni,senanglah skit eden menyenep root word nye 'snap' apa2 gambor lauk eden ye puan-puan..

Breakfast today cuma yang ringan2,so we had lunch earlier lah.. Memang everyday aku masak awal..pukul 11 pagi selalunya dah siap dah..Depends pada quality & quantity lauk jugak lah..hehehe.. Macam ari ni, aku masak simple, lauk kampung je.. 10.30 dah siap, pukul 11 pg kitorg dah start membaham..

Mengikut anti-clockwise : do I tell you that we will get maximum advantage (health aspect) when we do things, be it anything anti-clockwise rather than in clockwise direction?

1. Ikan goreng
2. Sayur petola dgn ikan tamban kering dicampur lada hitam tumbuk
3. Ikan kurau masin masak kicap & asam jawa
4. Telur dadar
5. Sambal belacan dgn mangga

Ini gambar 'dekat-atas' close-up lerr Sambal Ikan Kering tu..

Meh aku citer camne nk buat lauk ni yg aku rasa paling sonang dlm dunia tp rasanya mmg membuka selera.. Mula2, korang goreng dulu ikan masin tu..Potong kiub2 lah.. Korang boleh guna apa shj jenis ikan masin, tp mesti yg ada isi sikit lah..macam talang ke, tenggiri ke,ikan merah ke.. Tapi make sure ikan kering tau, bukan yg basah2 jeruk tu.. Pastu angkat, put aside. Pastu korang tumis bawang merah & bawang putih mayang, utk amount kat atas tu aku guna 3 biji bawang merah & 2 biji bawang putih.. Bila dah agak2 golden, masukkan pulak cili merah mayang, goreng sampai layu.. Pastu,masukkan balik ikan kering tadi, gaul2 jap..masukkan kicap sikit..agak2 ler 3-4 kali renjis.. After 1 min, masukkan air asam jawa..korang agak2 lah byk mana yek..sbb aku masak tak depends sgt kat kuantitatif ratio ni.. Maklumlah, dah pro..kih kih kih... SIAP!!

Haa ni pulak Sayur pedas petola..ekcelli, kat Terengganu aku panggil petola jenis ni "Tenneyy".. Takde sound plak blog aku nih..kalo tak lih korang dengar makhraj nye.. Lauk ni pun senang je..

Mula2, tumbuk bawang merah 2 biji & bawang putih 2-3 biji & lada hitam.. Ekskius mi,tumbuk tau bukan blend..alahai, kojap je jang kalo ko tumbuk botul2.. Hehehe, tadi mak mertua aku yg tukang tumbuk, aku arahkan aje..kuang kuang kuang.. Pastu korang rebus bahan2 tadi tu dgn air, jgn byk sgt air tu sebab nanti sayur tu pun keluarkan airnya jugak kan.. Rebus sekali Ikan (anak ikan tuu) Tamban Kering.. selalunya aku guna isi ikan panggang yg ditumbuk, especially ikan selayang, manis isi dia.. Tp kali ni sbb ada ikan kering ni, yg Mr.Hubby beli kat KK itu ari, laaaaaggiiii senang.. Ikan tamban ni pun manis gak.. Apa2 ikan yg byk tulang isi dia memang manis.. Masukkan sekali petola, gula sikit, ala2 hujung sudu kecik je..garam & sedikit i really mean sedikit Pak Aji.. Pak Aji ni aku tak guna pun kalo dlm masakan2 lain, bahaya wehhhh.. cuma dlm lauk2 yg macam sup, kuah air je aku guna..sebab punye terer Pak Aji ni, dia memang boleh bagi ummpphhhh kat sup2.. pastu korang rasa je lah..kalau sedap hidang, kalo tak sedap, humban je ikut tingkap dapur korang tu..hehehe.. SIAP!!

Selamat Mencuba dari dapur aku!!!!!

I got what I want!!

Yeehaaaaaa aku dh dpt camera...

Tapi bukan yg shocking pink tu..That one is not really advisable pulak... Blue pun blue lah...

Lepas ni lih lah aku ber'snapping' sakan.... Thanks love!!

It's 6th May again...

6th May come again..and today is the 11th year I met Mr.Hubby..oopssss he met me..because he was the one who saw me first kan..And being today, I am so grateful that our love is still strong and we feel like we just met yesterday!!! Sometimes it seems years when we realized we really know each other.. 

Looking at him sleeping (ganti tido sbb bangun awal pi ofis pagi tadi..) over there, me feel like telling you the story of how we met..Until now,I'm still amazed with Allah's plan (the most superb planner) called 'jodoh'..in our case..two totally strangers become one loving couple!

11 years ago, it was a tense day for me..sebab aku takleh jawab soklan exam hari tu..Sepatutnya exam dh abis semua org suka kan..tp biasa lah aku,takleh jawab mcm selalunya.. That was when I studied in PPP/ITM (NCUK program yg kononnya preparation nk ke UK ler tuuuu tp terbantut dek kerana economic turmoil that year..). So,mlm after Maghrib aku ajak Aza pi Giant,dekat je dgn hostel kitorg kat Sek.18 ni..jalan kaki je..saje lah nk tenang2kan pikiran..lepak2..

We were at the first floor,kat area buku2 (kalo dh student tu kan..) bila aku nampak 2 org mamat ni asyik jeling2 kat kitorg..perasan ke aku time tu..alahhhh masa bujang kan,bila org laki tgk sikit dah tersipu2,bangga pun ada..kah kah kah..Cuba kalo sekrg depa wat gitu,mau nak aku gi cucuk mata diorg.. Tak kuasa Mak!! Aku cakap kat Aza pasal mamat 2 ekor tu..Pastu kitorg mcm elak2 lah sikit,takut pun ada..Sekali tetiba..jeng jeng jeng...(slot cerekarama dah nak start..):

Mr.Hubby : Assalamualaikum..

Aku : Waalaikumsalam.. (nak tanya jalan ke budak ni dlm Giant ni)

Mr.Hubby : I nak sangat kenal dgn U..(sambil hulur bunga merah). Dalam tu ada phone no. I,jgn lupa call I ye..(korang dgr tu.."nak sgt", ish bangga aku..desperate betul dia nk kenal aku..heheheh)

Pastu dia terus blah..jumpa mamat 2 org yg dr tadi asyik ikut kitorg tu..chetttttt member dia ropanye..Dan aku,speechless tak tahu nk kata apa,diam je,mengangguk pun tidak..malu pun ada sebab adalah 2-3 org lain kat situ duk tgk 'shooting' tu..Dalam pikiran aku time tu.."mana la dtg jantan ni,tetiba je muncul..rasa2nya sembahyang tadi takde pulak aku minta doa minta dipertemukan dgn Prince Charming ke.."

Si Aza pulak..gila2 gelakkan aku..sampai keluar airmata..Cisssss sungguh tak memberangsangkan...Since we have nothing to buy,Aza ajak aku balik..tp aku kata, tunggulah dulu.takut mamat tu ada lagi kat bawah...So,masa turun tangga,aku suruh Aza intai2 dulu..Eh eh! lupa lak nk citer part best..

Just a few minutes after me holding the flower, aku dgn intonasi membebel, "haaa dahlah bagi bunga beli kat Giant, ada lagi ni tag RM2.50..karang tak pasal2 aku kena bayar masa nk kuar kang"... Tup tup, menjelma lagi si Putera Katak ni kat belakang aku.."haa ni resit bunga tu..kang tak pasal2 pulak U kena bayar".... Adussssssss sekali lagi malu nye aku...Mamat ni manusia ke halimunan ahhh??

So,kami pun dah nk balik after confirm depa bertiga tu dah takde kat Giant tu. Sekali bila melangkah aje keluar dr entrance, lagi sekali dgr org bagi salam...Alamakkkkkkk...eee rimas lah aku...

Mr. Hubby : Err sorry lah..tapi I terfikir plak..I don't think U akan call I, ye lah logiknya takkan ladies yg nak call kan..So,I ingat nak belanja U minum..dekat2 sini je..

Me : Ehh, takpe lah.. Nanti I call..

Mr. Hubby : No, I tak rasa U'll call.. please lah..kejap je pun.. Just nk borak2..

Banyak kali aku tolak, banyak tu jugak dia ajak..Ishhhh, kot ye pun suka kat aku, cover2 lah skit..hahahaha..( sure bengang laki aku ni kalo dia tahu aku dgn honest nye berciter kat korang).. Nasib baik aku tetiba dapat idea nk tolak..

Me : Sorry lah,actually esok I ada exam..last paper.. Study pun tak abis lagi.. Kalo tak, sure I ok je.. (padahal exam dah abis ponnnn)

Mr. Hubby : Ooo ye ke..ermm takpe lah kalau camtu.. I taknak kacau U study U plak.. 

................ lega..............................tp dia sambung lagi..

Mr. Hubby : so,esok I ambik U after your exam ye.. Around 4-4.30 ok??

Ishhh,tak nak kalah lah mamat ni..Aku dh tak tahu nk kata apa,terus je aku agree.. Then kitorg balik.. Phewwwwwwhhh..

Esoknya, aku mcm takut gak nk pi..Yelah, entah2 depa tu sindiket jual perempuan ke..lain macam benor aku nengok ehh.. Tapi, my housemates suruh pegi. Tak baik mungkir janji, kata diorg.. (tang ni aku sebenarnya nk berterima kasih kat korang..kalo tak,tak jumpa lah aku dgn laki aku ni..because if I didn't see him that day, it's all gone.. The next day,aku dah abis belajar kat PPP, balik kampung..and he doesn't know where to find me..kan..No tepon yg dia bagi tu pun aku dah buang..hehehe).. So,aku pun keluar dgn dia that day.. Dia bawak sorang kawan, aku pulak bawak 2 org..Mama Ullya & Mak Ultraman..and that was the beginning of our loving chapters... 4 years after that, we married!!!

I LOVED HIM..I'M STILL LOVING HIM..and will always be..insyaallah..

Haruskah aku menulis???

It's Saturday..

Last night,Mr Hubby found one site about a Writing Workshop..organized by a successful writer named..ermmm forgot lah..It's a package of a 1-day Seminar & 2-days hands-on Workshop on how to become a successful writer & how to turn your writing into a profitable one..It caught my attention indeed...It's my kind of never-faded-ambition to be a writer..but time flies,and I do so many things that almost made me forgot that ambition of mine,and plus I didn't qualified academically to be one(takkan nak jadi penulis tapi bawak degree engineering aku ke interview..silap haribulan,disuruhnya pulak aku repair mesin suratkhabar!!) ..But then,I think everybody can be a writer,it's just how good or not ones at it..It's just a matter of 'will you attract people to read your writings','what are you going to write about', 'will you write any issues that bump into your head or should you write something that only you are expert of'... Well,it depends on your capability actually..What kind of writing suits you most..formal,professional,novel-type,casual...it's all in you..

Mr Hubby encourage me to join for the workshop..Huhhh..."You got talent",he said..Wow thanks,I heard it many times before from my friends..But,putting it this way..it's not that I have less confidence nowadays,but I believe my writing was far more better than it is these days...Mungkin skill tu dah merajuk kot..hehehe..Kata orang,jika ilham datang,kita mesti coretkan..jika tidak,ilham akan merajuk & tak nak datang lagi..Well,from my humble experience..some of that is true if not all...

(cuba untuk 'mengecas' kembali tatabahasa B.Melayu ku)..Teringat seketika dengan tawaran daripada seorang kenalan sewaktu aku bergiat cergas dalam Zhulian dulu.Tak ku sangka,salah seorang pelanggan 'Breast Serum' (hehe..kalau boleh aku iklankan di sini..Breast Serum tu memang elok Awak!!!) adalah Chief Editor laman web CitizenThinkTank..sebuah laman web yang me'rating'/evaluate (terkedu aku mencari maknanya dalam bahasa ibundaku ini..) wakil-wakil rakyat & ahli politik.. Beliau sungguh-sungguh menawarkan jawatan Editor pada aku hinggakan aku hairan seperti cicak berak kapur wajah ni.."You only met me once,how could you say I'm capable in this field?" "Ujie,I'm a chief editor..I knew it from the beginning you SMSed me..You sound so professional & your words are really in order.It makes me smiling reading your SMS.." Wah wah wah...terima kasih atas pujian itu akan tetapi...aku terfikir jugak..alangkah indah jika semua yang ingin menjadi seorang penulis,SMS sahaja kepada Ketua Editornya..itu sudah memadai & tak perlu bersusah payah ke temuduga!!Secara hormat aku menolak dengan alasan penulisanku mungkin tak sehebat SMS ku!! (jika tidak masakan Abang Suami selalu terpana dek SMS ku yang mendayu-dayu itu..hahaha)..

Beberapa bulan kemudian,kenalan ku tadi menelefonku..masih dengan tawaran yang sama..untuk kali kedua,aku masih juga menolaknya..tanpa sebarang alasan..Hinggalah malam tadi,buatkan aku terfikir..."haruskah aku percaya pada apa yang orang sekelilingku nampak,atau pada apa yang aku sendiri nampak?" dan bagi aku..percaya pada apa yang orang lain nampak adalah seumpama minum dikala tekak tak terasa haus..nikmatnya tidak seberapa..berbanding dengan situasi yang lagi satu itu..kepuasannya sudah tentu berganda!

i like it when i feel hope...

Hehehe..terharu sgt baca komen kawan2,jutaan terima kasih kerana memahami & mendoakan..Insyaallah,aku pun turut doakan korang semua bahagia dgn life masing2..dikurniakan Allah apa sahaja yg dihajati..kesihatan,kejayaan,kekayaan & segala apa yg dilimpahkan kpd org2 yg Dia redhai..semoga kalian juga memperolehi...Amiinn..

I just came back from Mid Valley with Mr.Hubby & MIL..Ya Allah,lenguh giler aku jalan2 tadi dlm Mid Valley..bukan lenguh kaki..tp sakit pinggang & tulang belakang rasanya mcm dah terbengkok sgt..hehehe..It's been 30 days dah after my surgery,tp still lenguh2 yek...Perut pun buncit semacam je,tp aku suka sbb bila tgk balik,mcm pregnant 3 bulan..hehehehe...tak sabar lak rasanya..

Tadi aku gi Himalaya shop,pi beli supplement yg Dr Marsita suggest..SHATAVARI..sebut pasal Shatavari ni,kelakar lak Mr.Hubby..dia dah google about this Shatavari the day after Dr suggested it to me,and he was like not really keen to try that on me because there stated something about 'menopause' at the bottle.."Syg,u call Dr sekrg,tanya dia..betul ke ubat ni yg u kena mkn..karang menopause kang,naya je.." Hik hik hik..Aku pun sms lah Dr,and this is the answer "Alhamdulillah shatavari blh diambil to help w d hormonal imbalance not just 4 menopausal women.Fiiamaanillah".. (and Shatavari also can be taken by breasfeeding mom,because its main function is to reduce breast milk secretion in nursing women..)

Ari tu aku pi jumpa Dr, on my 12th day of period..and dia scan my eggs..dah ada time tu..left & right..and dia suggest for us to 'make baby', tp dgn selambanya aku jawab, more like whispering, "Dr..i takutlah..."..Memang pun,aku takut nanti 'that thing' terkeluar plak kat aku punya wound tu..kahkahkahakahh...So,terpaksalah Dr change the plan to my next cycle...

Now,I'm concentrating my plan on the conception..with the help from Dr Marsita & of course with the permission of Allah, Tuhan segala alam..Ni antara things I should take that could help me in getting conceive..

1) 7 biji kurma every day

2) Honey (i bought Honey extacted from bunga Habatuss Sauda & it tastes marvellous..)

3) Yogurt (syok jugak makanan2 utk mengandung ni)

4) Olive oil (minum mentah about 2 tablespoon everyday, or i can mix it with salad or as a bread      spread)

5) Fruits yg byk biji such as delima, guava, dragon fruit..( i told ya..)

6) Green leafy vege..

7) Habatus Sauda

8) Shatavari, produk Himalaya ada kat Mid Valley je..

9) Speman for Mr.Hubby...

Well that is meant to be taken orally..She (so nice) also advised me to perform Solat Tahajud, Solat Taubat, Solat Hajat..and banyakkan sedekah dan beristighfar & berselawat..

Aku rasa,apa yg dia suruh tu mmg bertepatan dgn moto hidup seorang Muslim..USAHA,DOA & TAWAKKAL...to those who share the same situation like me, i hope this will bring the good in you as well...till we meet again..

Love you all...

Email buat teman senasib..

thanks for caring... A woman will do anything just to be a mommy!! I pun dh kawen 7 years..but the first 2 years tu,hubby mmg taknak baby lagi,nk enjoy dululah katanya..hehehe..then,try punya try,terus tak dpt sampai sekrg..(but insyaallah the time will come soon).. Back in 2004,uji ada gi jumpa Dr Hamid Arshat,kat klinik dia kat Bkt Damansara tu..time tu dia buat vaginal scan (masuk camera thru vagina) and ikut kata dia,takde apa2..then dia suggest uji pegi buat HSG,x-ray kat dlm uterus & tube by injecting blue dye..uji pi buat the next day kat pakar x-ray kat jln raja laut..there's something from the film & results tu tp being org biasa,mana kita lih paham terms2 medic yg boombastic tu kan..so,the next day,i bring the result to dr hamid again,and dia kata takde apa2...walhal,kat situ dh nampak terang yg tube i dah blocked,and polyps pun dah ada..tp,uji rasalah,being so pakar,dr hamid ni tends to take things for granted..maybe pada dia small matters,but to us,it's HUGE beb!!so,basically dia ckp,"ok,u takde apa2 masalah..semua ok"..kita pun dah pakar ckp gitu,duk lah bawak statement dia sampai bertahun2 yg "ooo there's nothing wrong with me.Medically fit."Husband pun buat sperm test,and it's ok.(geram tak??but again,mesti ada hikmahnya kan).. so,in the meantime..i was keep on 'making baby'..hehehe..tp still jugak try other alternative medicines..uji pegi berurut,sbb rahim selalu 'jatuh' kalo angkat berat,and i have a very very severe period pain...kdg2 sampai pengsan,termuntah2,terberak2....punyelah teruk period..but,dah pakar kata 'nothing is wrong' kan..uji try jugak homeopathy..tp yg tu just cure my migrain (thankful to Allah)..apa shj supplements utk get conceive yg org suggest,uji ambik but sometimes ada yg painful so i just stopped.. then,last year uji try Chinese Herbal Medicines kat Seremban..nama klinik dia Golden Gate Fertility Center..masa tu when the doc asked about my history,uji tunjuk lah HSG films & the result (masa 2004 tu) kat dia..and dia kata.."how come doctor do nothing about this?this means your tube has blockage and as long as ada block,camne sperm nk jumpa the ovum.."so,time tu dah rasa geram kt dr.hamid...and we go for the Chinese Herbal program,tp tak lama sbb mahal sgt lah beb...tak tahan..1st time pegi,check for both of us,kena RM1500..pastu,every week kena pegi,everytime pegi kena lagi dlm 3-4 ratus...terjelir jugak lh lidah..so,again,stop jugak.. then,uji sambung pegi jumpa bidan2 kampung,and most of them kata takde apa2 jugak..tunggu je la masa belum sampai...huhhh.. entah mcm mana,bila masuk thn 2009 ni,duk kira umur dah 32..tergerak hati utk do something more serious..discuss2 dgn husband,so uji nk try jumpa another gynae..mula tu nk jumpa Dato' Dr. Noor Asyikin,yg selalu masuk TV tu,tp bila google pasal dia..tak berapa nk suit my character lah..(dun ask me why..i just feel it)..and few friends pun kata dia tu Rough sikit..so,uji borak2 dgn a few of senasib friends..survey2..sampailah one of my fren suggest this Dr Marsita Mansor..betul jugak org kata,kita ni kdg2 tgk juga atas keserasian dgn mana2 doktor..kdg2 org tak serasi,tp dgn kita,ok lak..and being with dr marsita ni,uji rasa comfortable..mungkin Allah dah tentukan melalui tangan dia kan.. so,i pegi 1st time jumpa dr marsita kat Pantai on 24/3/09..dia buat vaginal scan,terus nampak the polyps2 tu..dan dia pun tgk jugak film & result masa 2004,dan kata mmg all those thing dah ada masa thn tu..*sigh** dia terus suggest for operation..and explain apa kena buat..all those 5 procedures sekaligus in 1 operation..hsband dah mcm cuak tp uji kind of nak sgt buat operation tu...sbb dah malas nk try benda2 lain dah..'it's been 7 years dah common lah'..mcm tu lah rasanya..so,dia tanya mcm mana?uji terus kata,ok jugak tu..and dia terus isikan consent for operation,uji sign..cuma tak confirm date lg sbb husband nk check roster dia dulu...ikutkan husband,dia berat skit nk izinkan,tp uji berdegil jugak nk buat.. so,uji call sendiri doctor tu,book her on the 31st for operation..dan alhamdulillah,syukur buat operation tu sbb byk benda yg dpt dia betulkan inside..tube dah keras dgn infections (mungkin pernah ada infection dulu2),dah bersimpul2,rahim pun dah terlekat ke belakang,polyps pun byk,cyst pun ada..dia terus buang semua tu,and ikat rahim ke depan sikt because normal uterus berada dlm keadaan sujud sikit ke depan (Maha Suci kejadian Allah)...Alhamdulillah,sbb tube still boleh diselamatkan...just imagine kalo uji delay lagi,it could just ruins everything..nauzubillah.. so,basically itulah problem selama ni yg uji tak dpt nk conceive..ovary ok,telur pun ada,kalo ikutkan bkn masalah kesuburan lah..cuma maybe rahim terlampau byk 'sampah',jadi sperm tak jumpa carik,ataupun doc kata,mungkin dah jadik persenyawaan,tp there's no place to attach to the uterus wall. sekrg,uji & husband terus doa,moga2 after this,kami dpt baby...kalo dpt,every year nk pregnant..hehehhehe...sempat lagi kot nk dpt 5 org..hehehe..how sweet... my advise,go and have thorough check up,while we still young..but make sure,ambik medical insurance dulu ye..that's very very important..Life is like a box of chocolates,we will never know what we'll get...at least,we hope for the best,and prepare for the worst..kan..kalo u nk my gynae's number,just tell me ok..and pls call my insurance agent,he's damn good at this..(ask me his phone number). Just mention my name..UJIE & my husband ZAIDAN..jgn tangguh2 lagi tau.. apa2 pun,kita jgn putus harap..it's no good if we give-up with Allah..Dia dah cakap, "Mintalah apa sahaja denganKu,nescaya akan aku perkenankan"..pegang tu erat2,insyaallah...